Existence

I recognize people well,
however, people hardly recognize me as I do.

Do I have no stronger existence to reveal myself?
Or do I have no special distinguish features to be pointed out?

I wonder,
should I dress like the Brazil samba dancer,
with all the feathers, colorful flower petals, and decorative beads on me?

No, no, no.
I might need to lose some weights and learn how to dance samba first.
What a time-comsuming task to accomplish.

I doubt,
should I dye my hair red or perm it super curly,
with all the amazing factors on my head?

No, no, no.
Even thought it might cause much attention,
I would rather protect my precious long straight hair instead.

I fancy,
should I drop an item a step, like those characters in fairy tales,
with the hope of being discovered in every drop? 

No, no, no.
My over-optimistic expectation might be reduced to ashes.
What a heart-broken attempt to make.

Well, well, well.

I'd rather be myself,
with the most comfortable existence in the world, 
to let you 
feel the truest inner soul in me.

That is what my existence for.

Telepathic Man Story

The accurate time you show up,

the routinely turn you make,

the precise location you stand,

the usual way you move forward. 



It made me wonder,

you were a telepathic man.



... ... ...



Then, one day.

You finally, finally, finally, finally,

used your fabulous telepathy power to read people's mind.



The woman waiting in back line may be a math teacher,

whose mind is stuffed up by algebra and trigonometric function.

The boy staring blankly may not sleep well last night,

whose mind is not formed in concrete.



Regularly, you turn to read the girl who stand in front,

shockingly, whose mind is in a shocking pink.

Frighten as you, back for one step.



... ... ...



Out of the aroused curiosity,

the telepathic man keep watching the pink-mind girl,

who dresses not ravishingly but comfortably,

whose hair is straight and soft but not curled and fluffy.



Therefore,

this telepathic man chose to show up on time,

chose to make every turn the pink-mind girl make,

chose to stand right next to the pink-mind girl wait,

chose to move along with the pink-mind girl.



There is no same destination between them,

however, there may be a further dramatic story unfolds.



Pink-mind girl can not foretell the future,

neither can the telepathic man.

大蒜人生。

人都應該像大蒜一樣堅強。

就算面對鋒利的料理刀，

不用力，黏附在果實外的表皮不會剝落。

再使勁，也傷不了堅硬實在的大蒜心。

(當然過度使力，總會落得兩敗俱傷。)



人都應該像大蒜一樣獨特。

就算多數人避之唯恐不及，

總有人能欣賞你與眾不同的特色，

總能等到知音張開雙臂擁你入懷。



人都應該像大蒜一樣懂得配合。

熟食不搶味，生食不傷胃。



過大蒜人生。

當生蒜大人。



嗯...Yummy (?!)

Life Clip / Greedy Man

How greedy a man could be?



Overwhelming by one pure blessing,

wondering about a closer affinity.



Waiting for one beautiful fantasy,

asking for one proper answering.



How could a man be so greedy?



Dying for one more chance,

trying to accomplish one task.



Driven by own aspirer.

Given to own desire.



Day by day,

time after precious time,



Refusing to drown in own sorrow,

Expecting too much of upcoming tomorrow. 



How greedy a man could be?



There you are.





It is me.

Three Sisters 酒氣沖天開瓶文

同事去澳洲玩了一趟回來

平常都很小氣的他這次居然大轉性

不僅送給女生一人一條護唇膏

連男生也都一人有一個袋鼠"蛋袋"的御守(?!)



今天中午他今天請大家喝酒

(哇!今天太陽是從東邊出來吧?是吧?)











先請專屬model Mocha與瓶身合照

(放在床舖上站不穩的瓶身...)





這是一瓶酒精濃度9%的白葡萄酒

可是一點酒味都沒有唷!

















比"冰火"還好喝

(我覺得冰火還是有一點酒味)

白葡萄的甜味很明顯

像香檳但又有酒精成分在



入口順滑不刺激

吞酒入喉不傷胃



但一定要冰冰的喝才好喝

一旦退冰...酒的苦味很快就上來了















酒的名稱叫做"三姐妹"

(我們家附近有個理髮店就叫做"三姐妹"

不過根據我哥的說法店裡沒有三姐妹出沒

但是卻有十一個歐巴桑隨時為你服務

啊~~我離題了!)





這瓶酒為什麼叫"三姐妹"呢??

原來酒瓶背後還有附註











"三姐妹的傳說"

傳說在很久以前的澳洲大陸藍山上

有三個原著民的姐妹與有神力的神父相依為命

某天神父下山後

傳說中的怪獸出現要殺害三姐妹

神父及時發現

把自己神奇的骨頭(?!)丟向怪獸

同時還把三姐妹變成石頭等待怪獸離去

結果怪獸一氣之下衝向神父

並陷害神父將自己變成鳥

神父從此消失在山洞裡也失去了他那神奇的骨頭

而直至今日

三姐妹還是苦苦在等待神父歸來把她們變回人類





好幾個同事都在找台灣有沒有在賣

屆時找到再請大家喝看看吧~~~



最後哩...我要說...

上班時間果然還是不要喝酒

要不然下午談公事真的會恍神啊~~~



以上就是我難得的開瓶文 ^^

Unpredictable Future

有時候，很討厭去計畫未來。 



不管是該繼續工作，或者是轉換跑道， 

只要是需要改變穩定現狀的決定，總會讓我猶豫再三。 



可是沒有人能夠對一件事情忠誠到老死。 

就像人的心總是會有變化一樣。 

所以，總會有些時候不得不去思考人生的下一步。 



或許是因為老哥自己一頭熱吧？ 

一直不斷問我要不要趁早決定、及早準備。 

所以最近的我常常在想，是不是要繼續唸書、或去唸研究所、或去進修。 



可是，研究所就等於光明的未來嗎？ 

繼續進修又等於擁有穩固的保障嗎？ 



我好懶得去思考。 



突然間想起前陣子翻譯的文章，其中有一段是這樣說的： 

Maybe he’s lying when he talks about the future, when he acts like he doesn’t care. But maybe he really isn’t massively concerned about what he’s going to do. If you don’t commit to a goal, you don’t have to worry about what you’re doing, or not doing, to make it come true.



(或許他在談論未來計畫時說了點謊，還表現地一副毫不在意的樣子。但也或許，他真的一點都不在意自己未來的方向。如果不設下目標，就也不必擔心將來該做些什麼，或是避免什麼來達成它。) 



因為沒有目標、沒有方向、沒有計畫， 

所以就什麼努力也不必做。 

這樣聽起來似乎還不賴，

因為人的惰性，能不前進就沒有必要行動。 

但是，只有一次的人生哪裡允許自己這樣胡搞一通呢？



學法文？繼續工作？唸研究所？ 



未來，

有時候好難決定，好難計畫。

TWILIGHT 瘋狂月。

"It's twilight, the easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable. Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end." (Twilight, p.232-233/p.495) 







自從總算拿到Twilight第一集後， 

我就開始進入了「Twilight瘋狂月」。 



一個多月的時間，我居然嗑完了這四本像磚頭一樣厚的小說。 

其中，NEW MOON和ECLIPSE還在一個禮拜內讀完！ 

連我自己都不明白這樣的瘋狂與動力究竟是從何而來…… 



每天下班回家，先把家務事都做完後，洗好澡刷好牙， 

我就會窩在我那溫暖的床上，看著Twilight saga聽著Glenn Gould。 

(扣掉顧老頭跟著吟唱的擾亂，真不得不說古典樂與英文小說真是絕配。) 



Well, what a dime novel! 



要讓人欲罷不能還真需要點特別的功力。 

除了典型的吸血鬼與狼人的大戰戲碼(但也不過就是在搶Bella罷了)， 

還有經典的Edward式對白也讓人欲罷不能。 

但有時Bella脫點線的人類思考也很能讓人會心一笑。 



“Immortality must grant endless patience.”(Twilight, p.421) 



喜歡第一集的甜，第二集的苦，第三集的喜與痛，又或者是第四集有時出現的膩。 

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. (New Moon, p.93) 







還是最喜歡New Moon。 

除了有情節緊湊的「拯救愛德華計畫」， 

或許我還是對Bella陰鬱的暴躁心情比較對tone吧？ 



那種懷抱著看不見未來的一絲絲希望，

那種寧可放棄自己來尋求慰藉的心情， 

那種不願面對現實痛苦與殘酷的否定。 





"If I had found you, there isn't a doubt in my mind now I would have -- as soon as I discovered that you were that I was looking for -- gotten down on one knee and endeavored to secure your hand. I would have wanted you for eternity, even when the word didn't have quite the same connotations." (Eclipse, p.276)

也或許是喜歡那種「認定」的確認感。 

那份穩穩握住的確實， 

那股肯定實在的永恆。 



所以，第三集出現Bella疑似劈腿的情節真是讓人生氣到想摔書。 

怎麼可以讓愛你如此深的人傷得如此重？ 

怎麼可以讓那份確實握在手中的愛，就這樣被踐踏在腳下？ 

別說“Come back!”，還是喊出“Go away!”吧……  

“It was sort of the pattern to my life -- I'd never been strong enough to deal with the things outside my control, to attack the enemies or outrun them. To avoid the pain. Always human and weak, the only thing I'd ever been able to do was keep going. Endure. Survive.” (Breaking Dawn, p.374)

雖然第四集已經接近「吸血鬼的縱慾外傳」， 

也雖然情節慢條斯里到幾近讓人生膩的地步， 

還好Edward與Bella之間的紅線還是牽緊緊，那份「認定」也還是屹立不搖。 



從之前的Hero Edward到這集的Hero Bella， 

這樣的轉變雖說不上突然，但也還能讓人欣慰。 



(關於第四集，還是別爆太多雷。就只說: 

前頭是縱慾，中間是心理遊戲，後1/3是歡樂的家庭人倫，最後則是緊張刺激的生死決鬥。) 



結束Twilight saga已經一個禮拜，卻覺得過了好久。 

不過還好接著又翻譯了Robert的 “Interview with the Vampire”， 

所以離開Twilight的感覺並不那麼痛苦。 



不過，套用Edward所說的話，

No matter how perfect the novel is, it always has to end. 

(不管這部小說有多完美，它總是得有個結局。) 



所以，

就把那股確實、永恆的愛留在心裡， 

就把那段令人欲罷不能的故事放在心上， 

想起來，會甜甜的。 

那樣的故事，就是有完美結局的故事。



Wow~~ What a dime novel!

What a perfect Edward!



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